I can feel my demise
Against every word that you say
Bless me with your presence
But you bruise my flesh with your indiscretion
Scream at me from the top of your lungs
I slam against the cold concrete floor
Praying to the merciful one…please take my soul
Can I ask for something more beautiful?
-To be erased and forgotten?
I don’t think I can, how selfish I am
I glance behind me and see love itself
Holding his hand out to me, begging me to return
I cannot for I am bound and chained by my own blood
I curse this stupid vow I have not made!
Facing him, I sob silent misery
“Can you love me still?”
And he yells and begs for my about face
I cannot
I turn and run the other way
Away from the only thing that made me happy
Is it fair? Can you hear me?
I’ve ruined myself!
Lay my life down and slaughter what’s left
You leave me no choice but to do the same
As you let him do it to you
With every cursed vowel I will take it
And every whiplash he gives
I will stand in front
Forgive me mother, for I have failed
The daughter is no more and never will be
For I have taken a beating past recovery
I lay there broken and motionless
Trying to remember the love we had…why I would love my own flesh and blood
I cannot anymore. But duty calls and he’s angry again
Watch as I brokenly lay over you
Casting all blame on the only thing I can give-me
Upset and irritated you shove me aside
Accuse me of being irresponsible and I conceive-I tried
“Get up!” she screams
But the bones crunch underneath for she cannot
“You lazy ingrate, get up I say!”
And she lays there motionlessly, no soul to give
“You don’t do enough, its time to change”
A lightless body stays the same
Pause and walk away, the angry mother be
And he runs in
Sobbing tears that no one thought would be shed
Grabbing her wrists he kisses them gently
Wanting the warmth of love to recover her entity
Harder he shakes her, and wipes away the blood
Only to show the blackness of once alive skin
A roar escapes his lips and he casts his blame
Only to turn to stone at the scene
Oh my romeo, forgive young Juliet
She took the dagger, but not for you did she bleed